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Category: Diary
Tags: Work Days

Aaaa

In my last diary entry, here at least, I said:

Where I am during the day, it's an excessively comfy place to be, but I'm perpetually tired from writing and designing and coding until very very late at night most weeknights.

... this has not changed o(〃＾▽＾〃)o I am every-day tired yet I am consistently learning new things even after the hours of my daily regiment of work.

I'm right: 24 is still quite young.

Still, I feel I should be farther along than I am in both my work and hobbies. I cannot find an immediate solution which makes time for all my interests. Some days my work suffers because I'm thinking of Japanese or P2P or Solidity or any number of other things. Other days all of these things overwhelm me and nothing gets done. No amount of coffee can fix this feeling.

It all takes its toll too. Yesterday I fell asleep suddenly at 3P and woke up at 7P. Some days I don't feel like talking to anyone. I'm not very confident in my work. I think my anti-depressants have helped but they're certainly not magic, and some days the best I feel I can do is not make a fool of myself.

I still intend to take the JLPT (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) at the N2 level in December. Originally I wanted to study for N1 but it's clear I have no time to study that much. N2 is a useless accolade for me now but I hope it can find some use in the future.

I'm not sure how people do this. I'm not sure I'm in the right place.

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